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"Linchpin"
Can't take me apart!
See the light, a new day has arrived for us
Genesis of our evolution
A linchpin holds within a means to an end
Can't you see that we are one?
Can't take me apart!
No you can't!
We see no end to the dream
We will never see the end
We will never be the end
All my life I've felt discarded
Never feeling a part of it
No you can't!
Without me you will fade, you will not remail
We are one, and of the same Future Machine
A linchpin holds within a means to an end
Can't you see that we are one?
Can't take me apart!
No you can't!
We see no end to the dream
We will never see the end
We will never be the end
All my life I've felt discarded
Never feeling a part of it
No you can't take me apart
You can't change me now
By~Fear Factory
"SERMON"
Where was god when I needed a friend
Where was god when I came to an end
Where was god when I lost my mind
Where was god when I couldn't find
Don't want to be up or down
Where was love when I felt like hate
Where was hate when I felt like love
Where were you when you said you'd be there
Where was the fear when I said I was scared
Tell me what you believe
I'll tell you what you should see
Cause I don't know who to trust
My heart is filled with disgust
I can't take this
Ladies and Gentlemen may I have your attention
Are you ready for the joke
Are you ready for the great deception
By~Drowning Pool
"ROWBOAT"
Love is in the air
Blinding me with smoke
You are the air I breathe when I choke
Butterflies in the jar
Butterflies in the jar
Butterflies in the jar
So breathless
GET OUT OF MY ROWBOAT
Captured my heart
Goodies in the basket
Stuttering the ways
I love you honey
Insects in your kiss
Insects in your kiss
Insects in your kiss
You are my sunshine
Hey, GET OUT OF MY ROWBOAT
By~Coal Chamber
"EMPTY JAR"
Godless lot it's not a lot
But it's my lot in life
No fear is my weakness I hear
When faith has been denied
Godless lot it's not a lot
But it's my lot in life
No fear is my weakness I hear
When faith has been denied
Same as yesterday, confused
Walking through sticks using walking sticks
I've stuck to this so long
What I feel is so hard to deal
So I say so long
Walking through sticks using walking sticks
I've stuck to this so long
What I feel is so hard to deal
So I say so long
Same as yesterday, confused
Mine is the empty jar, the empty!!!
What you see it isn't always, isn't always
And what you believe it isn't always, isn't always
Mine is the empty jar, the empty!!!
What you see it isn't always, isn't always
What you believe it isn't always, isn't always
By~Coal Chamber
"White-Knuckle Blackout"
Veins are a racetrack for the fuel that I need
Life on the edge is the bread which I feed
Standing alone open for all too see
My tunnel vision for life it drives me
Focus In Closer
Releasing The Fear
White-Knuckle Blackout Adrenaline Rush
Wide-eyed and red-faced my skin hot and flushed
The hair stands up down the backside of my neck
Blood's beginning to boil the beads of sweat
Fear has it's place in the scars that I bear
Deep in my mind behind everything shared
Fixate my sickness as long as there's air
Headstrong I'll forcibly change what was there
By Focusing Closer
Releasing My Fear
White-Knuckle Blackout Adrenaline rush
Wide-eyed and red-faced my skin hot and flushed
The hair stands up down the backside of my neck
The blood's beginning to boil
These beads of sweat I'll dry out my eyes
And blacken everything except the goal out
Adrenaline is my fuel when I've an obstacle to climb
Adrenaline is the lubrication focusing in my mind
Adrenaline is telling me when someone's they're too cool to raise my middle finger up and say Fuck You
Adrenaline is fueling my mind to focus my climb
Reaction evoked at the challenge provoked out of you
Adrenaline is fire to fuel
You wanna fire my fuel?
I fire back a FUCK YOU!!!
By~Machine Head
"It Ain't Like That"
There I was, laid out on a table
Screamin'
sweat and bare feet to the floor
In my life, I'd not soften
Things that cut, and burn so often
But I sit, think of
somethin'
Scared to face, the dyin' nothin'
See the cycle I've waited for
It ain't like that anymore
Where I go
is when I feel I'm able
How I fight is why I'm feelin' sore
In my sight, not forgotten
Feel as though, a tooth were
rotten
Behind the smile, a tongue that's slippin'
Buzzards cry, when flesh is rippin
Here I sit writing on the paper
Trying
to make the words you can't ignore
In my mind, what I'm lacking
Score at face, a ten for slacking
Sign the deal,
set in motion
Smaller fish, so huge the ocean
By~Alice In Chains
"Angry Chair"
Sitting On An Angry Chair
Angry Walls That Steal
The Air
Stomach Hurts And I Don't Care
What Do I See Across The Way
See Myself Molded In Clay
Stares At Me, Yeah
I'm Afraid
Changing The Shape Of His Face
Candles Red I Have A Pair
Shadows Dancing Everywhere
Burning On The
Angry Chair
Little Boy Made A Mistake
Pink Cloud Has Now Turned To Grey
All That I Want Is To Play
Get On Your
Knees, Time To Pray Boy
I Don't Mind, Yeah
I Dont Mind, I-I-I
Lost My Mind, Yeah
But I Don't Mind, I-I-I
Can't
Find It Anywhere
I Don't Mind
Corporate Prison We Stay
I'm A Dull Boy, Work All Day
So I'm Strung Out Anyway
Lonliness
Is Not A Phase
Field Of Pain Is Where I Graze
Serenity Is Far Away
Say My Reflection And Cried
So Little Hope
That I Died
Feed Me Your Lies, Open Wide
Weight Of My Heart, Not The Size
Pink Cloud Has Now Turned To Grey
All
That I Want Is To Play
Get On Your Knees Time To Pray
By~Alice In Chains
FUCT
Where were you when I needed you the most?
Where was your love to comfort the pain?
Where was the feeling when you said that you cared?
All these thing I'm said to get from you I don't
I was there to comfort you now what about me
Should of been man enough to tell me you don't care
But you left all these wounds open for infection to set in
Part of me forever missin
My heartaches leads to heartbreaks and all the pain inside opens and fills
me because of you.
Everything you say to me stains me
Lead along down the wrong path by your lies
Than sat aside by you for nothing and now questions I have left unanwsered
Use to be hard for me to think where I'd be without you
Now I find myself left alone in the cold
My heartaches leads to heartbreaks and all the pain inside opens and fills
me because of you
These fifteen years can never be undone
Lived with so much pain left by you for me to cope with
Not fair that I am living life like your mistake
Just want this all to go away
Hope you are happy when you know and see that there was something you could
of done to save me
When you see that everything about you made me wake up dead
Forever now on your mind, this pain now yours
Remember now my so called Dad this was made by you and not me
Better off now without you, just never can forget this pain
In the end makes me stronger inside
Just please go away now and never come back
I gotta hold my own this time and I turn my back on this unforgiving life.
By:Josh .S. K
"Forever Torture"
I remember back when I used to smile.
Now all I have is this hurting frown
I remember back when everything in life was together and good
Now everything has came undone and fell down
I remember when I was happy to be alive
Now all I have is this selfish death wish
Forever in this torture life
I try my best to go on and forget
Not as easy as I wish
Bad memories plauge my mind
Pump an evil hate in my veins
Feel like letting some of this out
In my forever torture
I want to live my life over and make everything right again
Frustrated and helpless is where I end
This hurt rises up inside, the transformation starts to the other side.
Other side of me
I slip farther away with every slit of my wrist
Blood runs down and soaks my fingers
In this forever torture
Looking in the mirror I hate the person I see
I hate the nothing I see
Just a useless soul that dies without an end
Pain too strong to overcome, fear in my heart
All this is nothing I wished for
Why does this all feel so bad, so bad to me
There's got to be an end
Maybe if I stop, think, replan everything over again
I could make it out alive
In this forever torture
By~ Josh K
"THE HOUR"
Something drastic in my eyes
Can you feel the hate that grows inside
Violent thoughts fill my head
Another worthless body drops dead
I want to see you beg and bleed
Pick up an axe bloodshed nears closer to you
Sounds of metal ripping the flesh, cracking the bone
Do you hear the screams in the night?
Smell the blood and rotting flesh?
You knew I'd come back for you life after you damned near ended mine
After I'm done with you, no more wasted time
Cross off another name on my hit-list
So many more victims to repay with hate
Roll up my sleeves, pick up another axe
Here I come
Walking thru the shadows of night
Stalking the next fucking one
Feel your time growing near, your number is up
Face to face with the monster of hate
Your my victim, just trying to repay you for all those dirty deeds
Turn to run, the struggle is fun
Cannot escape your own made death
Swift blow to the back of your neck, severed head rolls
I laugh at your blood, another job well done
I'm guilty of taking another worthless life
Death comes hard to all of you cruel at heart.
By~Josh K
"EVERYTHING LEADS TO DEATH"
Chilling sense in the midnight air
Walking alone thru this world
So Dead and Cold
Feeling violence on the front
Feeling my hate,eager to unleash it upon this place
So much no one understand, so many un-told stories about this man
Try to block those thoughts out, but only to find they come back to me more intense
Many ones in this world need to feel nothing but pain
Pay backs coming!!
Never ever Fuck with my life
Fuck, Fuck your life
You've fucked over your friends,worthless piece of shit
How the fuck does it feel?
Anger building,deathly wishes start to mold,blood splattes the wall
See me coming for you,better save yourself
Not going to pause to take your ass out
My deed now done
Releasement from so much pain, so much torture
Walk away from the crime
I've done no wrong
Did the world a favor without it really truly knowing
Have so much more to finish more left un-settle
DEATH ON THE FRONT
By~Josh K
STANDING STILL
Crawling along the floor
Can't you see that I'm still kicking?
You've got so much hate and deathly thoughts towards me
Try as you will, never will you ever break me down
As long as I'm still breathing you better believe I'm still fighting
Cannot break me, you just cannot erase me
You cannot kill me, cannot make me bleed
Just cannot break me down
You stab at me one last time, trying to take the life from me
Take one, one more shot at me
Too much will and too much strength inside
I just can't allow myself to fall down
Put up with too much bullshit just to quit right now
Can't you see that I'm still moving
I've been thru more shit my sixteen years than you will your whole life
You don't wanna feel my pain
You don't wanna feel my hate
Sooner or later it's gonna give out
Ready to see your life flash before your eyes?
Ready to open your arms and let death flow in?
Ready for everyone to see your bitch ass cry?
Should of listened before
Just cannot break me down
You used to look down on me and make fun of me
Shit, now you respect me, scared to death of me
Fist to Fist, Man to Man, Pain for Pain, Blood on Blood
I told you I'd still be standing
By~Josh K
"FUCK YOU DAD"
I think about you everyday
But deep down I know I am wasting my thoughts
Wasting them on a person like you.
How could you just go and leave me?
Left without warning or words
I scream after you but you do not care.
I guess I was ment to be alone
Well all I have to say to you is fuck you.
You weren't never there anyway only in sight but never in my heart
So I focus on making myself everything that you weren't
I'll never let you live down what you have put me thru.
I just hope someone has pity on your piece of shit soul come your judgement day.
I was better off not knowing you.
You were better off not knowing me
Fuck you and your self pity
I don't wanna hear those words from you
You don't really love me you only say that
Try to mean what you say
Love means nothing to you
Never has never will
So all I really want is for you to leave my troubled mind
I wish that I could forget everything and anything
All these thoughts fill my head
Just go away I really do not care today
Go away
Leave and don't turn around
Never come back to me
Never say anything to me
Never again will you hurt me
Never again will you see me
Never Never Never Never can you see what I truely am
Never have you understood me
Never again is all I have left
By~J.S.K
"TRENDY"
Look at you all, the trendy crowd
Doing whatever sells
Sad to think the world has come down to this
Everyone looking the same, acting the same
Shit you call me strange, how you don't understand me
Fuck that I'm not the one looking just like everyone else
I have my own mind, I don't let other people think for me and tell me how to act
You laugh at me because I am different, I laugh right back because you are all the same
thing
But that doesn't make any sense to you
Not only are you trendy but such a dumb fuck as well
Sit back and laugh at your stupid ass talking about the "in" thing to do
And to top it all off you actually think you are a better person than me
Why? Just because your Mommy and Daddy goes out and spends money for designer clothes
I work for everything I own, I get by without much help
The shit I've been thru in life would of killed any normal person
You people don't have the balls or have the stomach to have lived like me
NEVER
Get that?
I'm stronger and better off in the long run
You peoples don't see that now but just wait
You all still at home at the age of 21 living with your parents
While I am out in the world making my voice be heard and making a difference in people's
life through music
So how do you like me now?
Knowing that you all once thought I was the no one and never will be anything
Never thought I would make it this far in life
And the sad part is that it was all based on looks too
Can't judge what you know nothing about
So this goes out to all the preppy people that think they always have to fit in, judge
others just because they look different, and for all of you that just think you are better
Just wait and see
By~Josh K
"POEMTOMYSELF"
Have you ever seen the world through the eyes of a broken man?
Have you ever seen the world through the eyes of someone who has nothing left?
Have you ever felt so much pain,hate,guilt,rejection,and unwantedness that it kills you
to wake up every single day?
Do you know what it's like to lay awake at night for hours on end and when you finally
get to sleep you dream of things that make you cry out?
Do you know what it's like to cry yourself to sleep each and every night?
Have you ever looked at a knife and thought about taking your life right here right now?
Do you get so cold that your body goes numb and you can't feel a single thing but all
the things that you carry inside and no doubt they will be there till the day that you die.
Do people haunt your mind with things that they did to you out of spite?
Do things that you didn't say to someone come back and make you wonder what if and it
hurts so much a tear forms in your eye just to run the endless race down your face onto the ground?
Do you want to be something more than nothing but no one will support anything that you
do and you are left to fend for yourself and teach yourself how life really works, not just fun and games, but a never ending
four walled prison cell that makes everyday torture?
Do my words strike you deep,make hurt run to the surface open up all those all wounds
and reflect back in time on your life only to smacked in the face and see it's never going to change?
So we are all going to die someday because that's the only way and just keep in mind
that in the end everything you do is just everything you've done.
This is my poem to myself.
By~ J.
"True Story"
Everthing that I'm becoming is all wrong.
Never wanted to be like that, never had any thoughts of me turning out like this.
Something has went wrong but I dont know what
Things are never what they seem, sometimes I feel as though I should just give up.
Anwser's always passing me by, waiting and waiting for it but useless no matter how hard I try.
Running with no where to hide,just need sometime alone to make my reasons clear.
I really don't want to die.
But here I go again, falling down again, beating myself up again.
Still with no reasons as of why I do this, don't worry or question why.
Things will turn out fine, morning brings a new found feelin for myself.
Or so I say this to back you off, not wanting my hate and pain to be noticed.
Just one more time please don't ask me why for this and why for that.
You'll never understand this man, just turn and fucking face the facts.
The demom in the freezer is starting to stir.
I hear the voices deep inside my head always asking me about mine that are dead.
Never will be able to look hard enough at me to see why or what it is that's infecting my mind.
Just let the time, the time run and run.
Do you not see the decay process has begun?
All the good that was left in me rots away and has no return
The evil awakens and makes the blood run.
My swollen dreams have ended and now the cold chill returns.
At the age of 16 this boy's soul has ended, flat lined out.
Was sure this would be loud, now I'm gone.
By~Josh K
"Mine"
My life was fucked from the moment I was born.
Family life did not function, had no where to live or stay.
Tormented thru out school I was that loser and scrub.
Had no friends that cared, just myself for all the guidance.
Fuck the hope, fuck the sorrow this is me.
All this hate that burns inside fuels my fire to prove
everysingle person that turned away wrong.
You haven't seen the world I know, so don't tell me it'll
be ok.
The truth is all that torment will never end.
You've got something I've never had.
A choice along with a voice to say what you want.
It all went unseen unheard, you don't know how good you
have it.
Fuck the hope, fuck the sorrow this is me.
You say I could of been this, I could of been that. I AM
Whatever you make of me is fine
I'm living the only way I know.
Each moment to moment
By~J.S.K
"Bleeding From Within"
I'm sick of trying and crying with all you people lieing, shit has got me spinning around
and around till I feel like I'm falling but I'm crawling.
Trying to improve my life working my way back where I was on top and I'll be damned if
I get dropped.
Smacked into the back of your mind you leave me behind sittin out here on my own in the
cold.
I've got so many reasons I should be dead I play them over and over again inside my head.
Wishing the demons that torment me whould get the fuck out.
I've tryed so hard to block all this out, but where does it get me?
Back to the point of where it began, life is the lowest form death is the purest form.
Hate builds along with my anger, pain and frustration start to flow, it creates such
a rush.
You don't even know so please hush with your pity. I'm a friend in need but why do you
become the enemie, ripping me limb from limb.
You just had to reopen my scars again, that's fine but what do you have against me?
I was there for you in the hour of need. I'm so thankful I've got a handful of friends
that actually care
And not just use me up and then walk away leaving me abused by all your shit.
Just fuck it I've said too much wasting my breath you'll never understand me, but I'll
make sure you see who the better person is.
You'll never live down everything you've done.
These are all the things inside my head while I lay down at night, fight to sleep.
So many hurtful scars unleashed upon me to play. It's so hard to even try and get along.
All I want is silence just one night to have the chance to sleep and not have to fight
the sleep because out of the things that make me question tomorrow and so I cry.
This is only bits of things I deal with day to day. So be happy you are who you are and
sleep well tonight.
I'm in for another struggle for life, things might work out or I just might die.
But remember me frozen forever in your thought I pray I'll remain.
And if you think this is goodbye your wrong. I'm just writing shit makin my time pass
so I can see the horizion of a new day.
Poem's my only therapy so I wrote as much as I can and hope that you all will understand
me. This has been a look into the everyday life of me
By~J.S.K
"Cold"
Cold chill in the night air, snow falling to earth.
Thinking about my life as I walk along, wishing you were here with me, missing you so much.
I know deep down at this moment you are with me, just really wish I could see your face again.
Look up to the sky see the moon glowing that gives off a sad effect to the moment, makes me wonder.
Snow starts to fall heavier now, chill getting worse.
Coldness eating me to the bone.
I swear I hear your voice somewhere around, telling me to push on and don't stop trying.
You'll be there waiting for me.
Burns inside to think of what it would be like if you were still here walking beside me, but you've
moved on to a better place then here.
That I am thankful for you were too good for this world.
I have a feeling about this night, I'll be seeing you soon.
By~J.S.K
"These Way's"
I don't like how I feel - slit my wrist
I don't like how it is - cut my throat
I don't like the way you make me feel - I'll take your life
Was led to believe that our life was free
No worries, no lies
Then soon to find out all these feelings inside are nothing more then lies
Run your mouth, beg and plea for me to stay
Lips move but I don't hear, nothing will change
I just don't really care, you try to bring it back again
Full circle of lies, just let me be
Bitch in time you'll see
Things will become clear
I don't like how I feel - slit my wrist
I don't like how it is - cut my throat
I don't like how you make me feel - I'll take your life
It's cold on your own, but I've learned this is the way for me
My hopes and dreams no longer found
Evertime I go to believe all their lies bring me down
Gotta stop trying for all of you, more focus onto me
Improve in need, take my pride from you
True love is a waste of time, try as you must but you'll never find
Get it to stay, always wanting to drift further away
I've opened myself up too much again
Need to learn to stop writing my mind
Doesn't really get me anywhere just more cries
Life grows old to me my time is running thin
I can feel the death as it runs thru my exposed veins
Blood runs out - Death runs in
With every deep cut - My life has reached it's end
CUT
By~J.S.K
"Smile"
I've never been one to put myself before friends
Sometimes they are all you have
To talk with and share with all your feelings that no one knows
Cherish each moment with people you care about
Trust me, you can take that for granted and if they go it will eat you up
I've had my share of loved ones go, but I finally seen they are in a much better place then here
Nine times out of ten my friends keep me going, waking up to see a new day, giving me that extra push I
need to make it through
I'd give up everything I had if it ensured them each a happy life forever
The little moments are what matters most, just remember that
Just thought I'd take the time to let them all know they aren't forgotten and I'm here when they need me
This isn't really a poem, but as long as the words are true does it really matter what kind of form I write
them in?
By~J.S.K
"Today Was...."
This day was a bad day for me
This day wasn't much different from any other out of the week
Nothing went right everything wrong
The more I wanted things to work the worse it all got
But that was today no worries just get it out of the way
I've got plenty more of them coming to me to work it all out
To improve my life
Day by day I see this changing in every way
People,family,friends nothing can stay the same
That used to really hurt to have to face things like that
I wanted to be happy forever and always
As I got older I've seen life doesn't work according to your plan
I've been pissed off, blamed the world and my life for such a long time
I was young and so very stupid then
Didn't really have a mind on my own went on the basic idea
I know now that most things are my fault, they could of been stopped
But hey that was today
Can't worry about that it's done it's over just move right along
None of us want to welcome a new day with open thought and hope after the last one went
to shit
But the next one won't be so bad, things will improve
Life is just a series of moments so you can't stop and focus on just the wrong things
You never know when that could of been your last moment
Just live life,sit back and let it all unfold
By~J.S.K
"Inside"
This is worthless no matter how hard I try to get these feelings down in pen
It never comes out
I've got so much to tell but the words are lost can't be found
Pain gives my mind a block I try to cope and write
This is my escape but it's running dry
Not easy for me to talk about certain demons, I want to expose them bring them to the
surface and use them against you
If you only knew how much you've taken away from me
I wish I could give you something in return
All this inside from the years you abused me were cruel to me
When everyone's gaurd is down I'll attack
Letting all this go let the maddness unfold
I've built up and saved up so much
Keeping you alive has been killing me
You self-centered greedy un-caring son of a bitch, that's right I said fuck
you
How did I come from someone like you?
You were supposed to be my parent not my worst enemy
By~J.S.K
"Never See"
And now I can't find my way away from here
This gives me so much comfort but yet it kills me more with each passing moment
Need to find a way to break through before I'm trapped forever and lost
I know better but why did I say one more
Just another easy way out of hurt
I've never been one to run and hide but when it comes to you I crumble
I've fucked up my life and can't seem to get myself back on track
Fighting with myself, need more self control
Things have never been so un-clear before, it's like I'm not sure about anything anymore
I shake inside I start to get cold
Withdrawl is back again to confront me
It all started when my innocence was taken from me at 6 years old
From then I wasn't right I had these thoughts of something wrong with me
Found my escape through razor blades and all these pills
I need to stop with everything but I'm in need of support
Weakness has taken it all away from my control
The question why me runs in my head over and over again
I'm so scared no one can ever see this side of me
Fake smiles and a fake life is how I must go on
Yea I know it's wrong but would anyone understand or would they think differently about me
Well here comes the sun I'm in for another fight
Cross your fingers for me
No matter how bad this rips and tears at me I must try
By~J.S.K
"Blind To See"
My words and thoughts go down in this again
Understand it'll never be the same again
You stripped my layers out to the purest point and took a violent stab
Left permanent marks of scars
But you are blind to see this
You are blind to see that
Everytime I cry you will never know it's over you but would that even matter?
To you I doubt it
There's so much to how I feel but it don't matter
You've got me lost in the world
You were there now you are gone
I never wanted to be left
No one truely knows how alone I feel at night laying awake thinking fighting not to cry anymore
I'm only 16 and I can only take so much before I reach my breaking point and go snap
I can honestly say I've lost all control I once had on life
This never made much sense to me anyway
You try to smile and be happy feeling like this just like I do
I'm fucked and now it's over
God I feel like screaming at you all
Letting go is so hard you all just don't get it
Underneath all these layers this man wants out to reach the surface
But it'll never happy my layers grow thicker day by day
The person I need to be is growing dim the light is about to burn out
Does this make any sense fuck I've lost my mind
Things are getting to hard to explain
I'll never understand why?
I'm looking right through my trying to see in but I'm blind to see
I just can't go my last moment has arrived
You people will never again hear from this guy
Blind to see it just look away while I turn and just walk away
By-J.S.K
Scene #1
I'm on the other side, flipside, I can't recall how I got here
There had to be a slip and fall, Somewhere but I know not here
What does all this mean? There's no purpose I can't be seen
Do you understand? Was it something I said?
All my six six sic dreams, That shit ripping me apart at the seems
I still don't think you all understand, I might just be too complicated or just to real
to feel
Could I be that pure?
I doubt it, You ain't never met a mind as fucked up as mine
That's the truth and I'll stand by it
Then I sit back and watch all you people's try it, it doesn't seem right, I won't
buy it, buy in, sell out that's who you be
A pettern in the making a process about to fill out
Wow did all that come from me?
See I don't think I'm me anymore I just might be you
Or are you who you are?
What? Ok nevermind just go to the next line
Now all my words are tangled in a vine no not a web
I won't get out what I felt this time
So oh well
My thoughts go dead I'm outta time
Say the final line But don't worry there's gonna be a part 2 to my story line
By~J.S.K
Scene#2
Can you hear those voices talking in my head, they make me shiver,cold,dead
I wish they would stop my hurt instead they cause a crash and burn
My emotions run deep like the ink I write with, I'm frustrated now the time passes hour by hour
I get mad and even with myself, I need to stop and be glad
You know what fuck all this, life is overated, passion is back stabbing
This you cannot have it you don't understand what I mean when I say............
You didn't hear it? My voice didn't come near it my thoughts are mine
They are a sign to explain the unexplainable part to this mess
You can't stress with this, you don't want it I've warned you before
Take a look inside and you'll die, my mind is venom to your soul it'll rot your skin, snap your back, and
rip your purpose of living away.
I'll strip you down to the point of your innocent that's where it hurts the most
Don't you see all you people who think, think these thoughts
You are nothing to me I don't need you
I'm strong
All these years from walking alone at night ignited a fuel in me that makes me fight
I was down on my knees falling face down crying on the ground
But no more of that shit
I'm the beast a creature with a unique feature
I'll lurk in the shadows not making a sound I'll spring to attack burry this fucking blade in your neck
I bet that hurt! Blood run red now who's gonna fall down
This is you I'm no longer
What doesn't kill me makes me stronger
By~J.S.K
Another Part 2 This
I start to write with soul hurt
I've lost myself in a crowded room
I'm feeling this unknown this takes me away
Inside I die a little more, Inside my hurt rises up one more level
Hollowed is I
I'm numb to the abuse you gave
I'll stand silent you'll never know
Stare in my eyes you see nothing
But miles of open space
Inside I die a little more, Inside my hurt rises up one more level
I can't wait till I'm at one with the other side
My flipside world that does not seem to be but to only me
I've been here and I liked it
The pain The hurt That hate The Violence The Crazyways I feel
Plug into my world
It's the unknown that loves me
Everything else hates this
I cannot live in the downward world
I demand much more
Inside I die a little more, Inside my hurt rises up one more level
By~J.S.K
"MidNight Hour"
Warning: The following written statement is true and not ment to be read by close minded people.
Alone I be walking, talking to myself. With no place to be fast, I keep going and these hours pass.
The sun sets on a blood red sky, tonights my time to fight.
I'm coming for you in the midnight hour.
You'll never know I hate you, rate me I'll erase you
Don't dare give me a reason to end you I've been pushed too much
I'm about to bust this shit won't be pretty
Go ahead and try, You just signed your death wish
Turn the lights off run and hide
It doesn't really fucking matter
I'm killing you from the inside
I gave you a warning didn't I?
Please I hate too see a grown man cry
Do you feel it?
Remember your last gasp before you pass
I just wrote an end to your ass
By~J.S.K
"Erase It"
If I could shake all my haunting visions in my head I would
If I could erase all the pain inside my soul I would
If I could live down all my mistakes I would
And don't you see what matters to me is nothing more then a worthless wish
I wish for the day to come that all my sorrows flea and leave me for good
But I know I know this can't be true
All these sick visions from my childhood haunt me at night filling my dreams with the pain I took
and watching my innocense stolen away
It burns my eyes to see and I can't close them tight enough to avoid all these...
My soul has been ripped in half from every ounce of pain and hurt that's been thrown
I've been left for dead time and time again and here I remain still holding my own not going to lose
my respect for me
Throw all my mistakes in my face and make it sting I was never perfect in your eyes but you don't
even understand how hard if was for me to try
I let you down or so you say and that repeats over and over day to day
I was never good enough for you and I never loved enough of you
But I stay strong through out the years and I search within myself to erase all memories you'll never
fucking stop me
Focus my pain to help reach all my dreams
I'm going to be something one day and you have to watch
Deal with that you'll never take my goals and dreams
Bury my dreams and I will bury YOU!!!
*Dedicated To All The People In Life That's Disrespected Me Hated On Me Threw Me To The Side And
Left Me Alone.. Your Days Are Numbered!*
By~J.S.K
"Just Another Victim"
How do you kill a man, that has nothing to live for
How do you sleep at night, knowing that day comes
How do you break a heart, that knows no love
How does all this make sense.... I'll explain
Time doesn't stop for anyone, not you not me
Everything happens for a reason, so they say and to everyone else it all makes perfect
sense..
But too me
You can't feed me enough words to make me believe the truth in lies
I've seen your type come and go many times
One day it's all great and the next you have no clue
It never affects any of you only me
How's that fair
No one can tell me
I've been held up way too much in life to second guess anything again
Gotta make up ground that people have costed me
Wasted it thru and thru
There's not a part of me that doesn't hurt with pain from someone or some thing, I hate
feeling this way
No one can take me out of this but me
Try as hard as you want, I'll erase my life before you could yours
I've lived too much, Loved too much, Saw too much but yet I go
Again and Over the same path, along that same fucking road
Need to move to a higher level, road less traveled
To make it my own, for me and me alone
I'm sure I will find it there
Everything I've lost, Everything I've gave up
Shit if I'm lucky I might even find myself at peace for once
Which is all I've ever wanted
The day will come and the past will go
I'll set myself up and I won't be let down again
I'm doing this for me cuz it's my life not yours
Have a problem with that?
Just move out the way and let me move
Take a hard look as I walk past you.. This will be the last day you see this side
of me, Prepare for the challenge.
By~J.S.K
"Fuck This And Fuck That"
How many people can say they know me?
That they have seen what I've seen
Felt what I've felt
Lost what I've lost
How many people think they can judge me?
Based on what? How I look? What I like?
How many people think they fully understand me?
They know what I think and do?
How can you know more about me then me?
How can you understand me when I can't even come to terms with myself?
By~J.S.K
"H-C Tussive"
Black,Blue,and beaten up to the extreme
No longer do I feel No longer do things amount
I'm not numb,I'm not living,I'm not where you seen me
Nothing can or will wake this
My fire has finally burnt out and the clouds darken
When it rain's it pours,my road running out
Some win,Some lose,Some just live
And the funny part... I'm none of them
Living was never an option and I never asked for this
But it was you that finally broke me down
You should take a bow for putting me out
I had too much pride to walk out like this
But this time why does it matter?
I took my life, The struggle stops
THE END OF ALL TO COME
FIXATION ON THE DARKNESS
By~ Same As Above
"Annihilation I"
Start it up and stop it again, break the mold and increase the force
Bend and weld the parts that hold it together, increase the pressure to fold
Nail the remaining features into place
We had the task to rebuild this monster
It started as a simple feat, soon got sucked into the mix
Gave up so much for so much to lose
The evil we made, we gave it power to rule again
Feel good Feel bad?
That's my call, I say let it go, this was bound to happen at one time
Metal hitting flesh sounds so silent in the last moment
Hate dies so hard in the world
I'm untouchable but I'm forcing you to feel me
Just listen
Find the center and balance yourself on the line
Learn and forget
Like a broken needle kid your missing the point
None of this comes easy, the shine begins to shimmer
I dream in black and white at night, sometimes the day bring color
Reckless, Silence comes easy and I'm still walking on
It took effect it took it's toll
He rose up and destroyed the system that you all look to for comfort
They have been judged for the crime of perfection
By~J.S.K
"Human Race"
Attention all you sinners, now's the day to rise up and pay for your crimes along the
way.
But what if your a sinner too..... Fuck that
You can't make me and you won't break me
Down I go, I have no fears left to face
Just bring it, My bones can't snap my heart won't break
I'll look into your face and spit, Laugh at me now
That's what I thought, you can't it's locked, this game is on.
Prepare to die you simple mind fool, I'm the one, I'm the game
Carry on without the flame
Your sins I carry, the man I burry down, human race chasing me down
But I outrun you all, prepare to smack on the freefall
It's over now What? Asking me to bow down and ask forgiveness?
Are you crazy? forgive me past forgive my future
No I wont take or ask to stop my fate
I'm me the original the untouchable
I'm not your fake god do not forsake
I'm the way
This human race is down laying upon the face unable to scream yet
Suffer, tick-tock tick-tock
Watch for motion aim it get ready and pull... Bang
Game Over
By-J.S.K
"Run Program"
My finger on the trigger, should I pull it
Barrel in my mouth should I bite the bullet
Too many reasons to die Too many reasons to change my life
I respect the love of my friends and they understand this
But you well that's another story
I don't think that you want it I don't think that you know
Kick me when I'm down shove me on my ass
Break my heart and tear down my mind
Pull my dreams out from under me
Do what you want Say what you can
I'll never bow down to someone like you
Step into the light bitch and see
I'll hand you the gun take your best shot
Go ahead and end my shit so you can be free
Raise it up and aim then blink
Bang bitch your ass just got blew away
You can't understand my breed I'm too proud
This shit hurts but I will wont stop untill my casket drops
You were to selfish to see my scars
So I made some for you
Doubt me again go ahead and disrespect me once again
Hard times wont stop me
I hold the key to my own ending
I lay down the gun and walk away
Today is not mine
I bleed inside and cry to myself
But you aren't worth taking my life
I will stand tall until the end
By~J.S.K
"Haunted"
I hear screaming middle of the night
Shhhhhhh Listen, they are calling
The haunted don't rest on nights like these
Pitch black sky moon with the silver glow
Cold wind blows and chills your shit down to bone
They come closer
Catch that movement outta the corner of your eye?
Was it there? Was it gone? Hear the fading footsteps?
Hair stands up down the back of your neck, do you fear
The spirits are awaking tonight
Are we? Haunted By The Dead
It only gets worse with that body swinging from a rope
Blood in the grass screams fill your ears, See.....
The empty grave it's marked for you
They come out to clain another victim
Don't run they give chase
Tonight might be your last, Scared yet?
They kill the sinfree and holy, burn they body and lay it to rest coldy
Haunted Nights Lead To Haunted Days
WATCH
By~J.S.K
"Remove You"
Can anyone tell me why? I've counted all my reasons, I've decided to pull back, drop out and wait for my moment and own
it, flip it, I've re-wrote a few times added within a few lines
How many more times, must I wait until I'm considered by design to fill the mold, and break ahold of my chance to live
within. Many thinking my times run thin and I've been counted out of this
Despite your cover of night I'll kill you twice
Once more then once again there thought corrupt and fucked beyond belief and my mental mind of health fell crashed and
burned
Reopen that small black room, of what, of mine, of course you hear me speak, my words are like a dagger without a dull
end.
I'll shove in your fucking back and wait for the sound the snap gasping for air
Your soul left naked exposed to all around to see
No chance to cover up to touch up those parts that are dark they spark upon the hit of light about to errupt into a fire
That'll leave desire left alone again so cold that it is what it is
Fuck I said it again please begin the process of pure hate
My own Bush war campaign
By~J.S.K
"Sex Im This"
I'm pornographicaly educated
Enriched with sex and the best at making girls scream
Come on girl make me yo baby boy
You'll never go unsatisfied again
Ain't no guy make a girl tingle like me
Just face it I'm sexploiatation and you'll never be anything like me
Kid please,girls these days want a grown man
Not no lil boy that gives only three second joy
I'm sex etiquette,enternal in my bliss
You'll curse the day your lady found me
She wants to be engaged cuz I enhance the sex and make em endure
Your so called talk is just enigma man you's a bore
Ok I'm ready to go play since everyones had their turn to say some shit
That didn't make no sense like what come again?
Sounded all past tense to me
How can virgins know shit about sex, that's like tellin a blind dog to fetch
Come on drop the pimp act and just go
You'll embarass yourself some more I know how shit really stays
Obey the rules of love my sons, follow your heart you'll get through
Don't think with your dick
You'll get burnt by child support and spending sleepless nights being Dad
You ain't ready
Besides I'm still the original Viagra Triple Shot
There's no stiff competition from either of you
Back up learn get a clue before you return and declare yourself the one
Can't you see? I'm like a swollen penis you just can't beat me!
(Many Thinks To Those Two That Helped Make This Possible)
By~ J.S.K
"Our Family In Crime"
Tellin me to watch out, duck down and count my blessings. Before you have to bust out a 9 and blow my brains out. Then
you and the crew gonna head out and celebrate your hit. Shit man this is ain't gangsta rap, you ain't even gangsta, you's
the wanksta. Faker then them plastic Barbie dolls that them lil girls buy at malls, across this country. Wannabe talk gets
smacked back into your mouth. Man you's messin with the family, we crime bosses like mobsters with ruthless aggression. Like
old time hosses, We ain't gotta worship crosses to get saved.
Start prayin on your knees and beg to god that this will pass, no longer last, and you can live without
fear and tears of them bullets. Blood stains on the sidewalk body chalks out, drawing an outlind of that dude's flatline.
Our family moves as a unit, organized. What happened to your crew? Body count 1,2,3,4 you nervous? Shaking? This just may
be ya turn to die, Hold up man what's his number? I think five. Hitmen
with contracts the kind you hear about on Godfather soundtracks. It's over man you know where yous belong, in the ground six
feet deep. I'll stand on your grave and shake my head.
Why couldn't we of settled this with knuckles? Find out who owns the biggest betl buckle, like championships.
We've got the next league leading Franchise, Dominant like the Yankess in October. This fall classic
has ended it's over yous a run short of extra innings. We've got power hitters smacked that one out the park, 5000 mark. One
more time, selfish as it sounds, we cocky, we confidant, untouchable. You can't see me, be me, anything close to us. We's
the family and we've spoken your alls tokenism attempt is now over. Story lines read over the producer nods, Now it's final.
By~ J.S.K
"S.A.D"
Who's gonna tell me it's ok when I'm down?
Who's gonna wipe away my tears when I cry?
Who's gonna hold my hand when we walk?
I honestly have no idea who that person is
But if I had my way I'd make sure it was you
You've always picked me up and always gave support and understanding
You honestly make me open my eyes and see what I got and it isn't all that bad
I'll give you my love and respect and I'll do everything to make you smile and laugh
Inside I live for moments like that when I know you smile
And from now on out I'll have your back and shelter you from all the bad things in this world
Our friendship runs deep and it'll stay that way forever
No matter what, as long as your happy I'm happy too
Anymore you really are my light at the end of this dark tunnel
I know I can never give up and let you down
I've got to stay here to watch over you and keep your world moving around
I promise you'll always have me, sealed with a hug and a kiss
You'll never know how grateful I am for you
By~J.S.K
AntiMe
I'm not here to save the human race
I'm not here to pull your ball and chain
I'm not here to rewrite the wrong
I was one reason alone, I'm the AntiHero of your world of your life
I'm nothing you want and nothing you believe in
I'm the reason for all this filth
I'm the reason for all this crime
I'm the reason for all this mess
The world was clean 18 years ago but after I was born this dark cloud over my head made
me the AntiHero
Fuck rights- fist fights
Fuck love- spill blood
Fuck sex- less stress
Fuck peace- violence in the streets
Fuck school- simple rule
Fuck trends- they end
First one to become thie only, first one to face thy lonely
AntiHero faced one way not two
I am everything this world HATES
By~J.S.K
"So that was it then?"
Time has no feeling for anyone or anything
Days past me by and I can't tell you why
I've been alone for sometime now and it hurts so bad inside
Crawling across broken glass to feel myself bleeding now
Getting closer away from the ones I love
Feel it taking shape deep down in me reforcement ending my deep sleep
I need saved and changed but god doesn't talk back these days
The devil offers me a multiyear contract but can I take it?
Nothing seems real anymore but is real really there or just a fake?
Crawling across broken glass to feel myself bleeding now
Laying face down in the pool of sin drowning away my ever after party thrill
Face black innocent victim attack how dare the public react like that and snap at the killer of life
He's not the thriller they want when we can't see
Too much too less and this was it
By~J.S.K
"This Is My Letter To You"
The gears in my mind begin to grind together
Making everything come to a clear known point
I was me and you were you
So many things could of been different
But none
Maybe I was below average
Maybe I wasn't the one you need
So many things to ponder and believe
But stop
Everyone knows me and they'll stand up for what I have to say
The plot was too thick to see around
The sky was too dim to see into
Everything coming out all at once now
My stress and pressure makes me act like him
But I am me
The focus shifts upon other known facts about this
My life, their life, it all runs together so fast
Wish I could stop and at least take some of it back
I said things I shouldn't of said
I've done things I shouldn't of did
But the past is the past
The future not to certain but it should get here
No more haunting pains at night
No more inside my own world crying
So much I am going to change and start over
I feel the need to wipe my slate clean
Everything feels so much more alive to now then it ever has before
I think I can make it out ok this time
By~J.S.K
"Born With It"
It runs in my bloodline
One of these days you all will see
I've got this need to make a difference in the world
To bring down all the trends and rules that they apply to us all
I was born dirty and I'll go out clean
I can't be molded and held against my living will
One of these days you'll wake up and see
I'll be the new public speaker
Center of all the media attention
I'll be the new extreme and the masses will come follow me
I'll gain the support of millions
Each generation in my family the whole idea has grown larger and larger
I was the first one to get enough steam going to try
All those times I've been knocked out and spit on has helped me
I've stopped holding in all the anger and rage and it's going to come out
I'll set the standards and records to be broken
Believe me when I say the new days are upon us now
The whole system will be taken down by my attacks
You people given the wrong right with freedom of speech
It will be used and taken to the most extreme cases
I'm the type of person that would even make Charles Manson flinch
You can't hold me down any longer
I've the dicked by the system and laws, now the time has come to reverse roles
By~J.S.K
"Quote Me"
I was the first kid on the block to go hardcore
I broke the mold and raised the bar
Got sick of hearing that punk rock shit on the radio allday everyday
Same tune, Same song, People buy into this shit?
I took a stand and rose up above this
I made my voice be heard and people shyed away
I'm Manson in the new testament
I'm shock rock, metal that'd make Slayer blush and turn around
Nothing held back in those circle pits
I loved it
From Fleshrot to Filth Core and back I've put you weak ass kids to shame
Best drummers in this world can't touch me on my worst of days
Double bass that'd split your skull and the most aggressive sounds ever heard to man
Todays the day my wasted dayz return from the ash and take what is ours again
Back to the front we go coming to a town near you!
By~J.S.K
"My Buddy"
Today I lost my buddy
You always talked and helped
Lend a hand to make sure I did right
I hope you can look upon me and see you will be missed man
No more long talks about everyday life
Thank you from the bottom of my heart Jeff
You'll be missed but I'll meet up with you one day
Hope you are at peace and your daughter is back with you
Much Love~
(9-08-04)
By~J.S.K
"Another Day Another Time"
Wasted days and sleepless nights
Can someone help me understand
Why things have changed and I failed
Unable to pass the test, the floor comes out from under me
Try to reach for something to hold but I can't find it
Falling I smack the ground with a thud
I can't feel anything and I panic
Laying here to rot face down in a puddle of my own blood and tears
It hurts yet I struggle
You could of helped me yet you watch me fall
The cold chill in the air makes feelings come back
My old friend is walking in upon me
Fixing all the wrongs with rights
Making this life perfect for you
ALONE
By~J.S.K
"Crumble"
In my mind today I could picture so much but I would have to hold on to so much more
It has became weak over the years and no amount of glue can fix this
The human body can only take so much and mine's overdue for a repair
I can't allow everyone to see me down and my pride too far gone to make it back
Somehow the distance from everything helps
But what doesn't kill me makes me stronger but I can't understand that now
Points been reached and goals have been broke
Everyone has problems but this is my two cents
Focus upon the innner one and make it shimmer again
Sin after sin, recount after recount I'm still going around
No words or spoken letters can prepare anyone for the best of this
Beware before you step foot inside the doors of this hall
People lurk and an evil president has control
Everyone feels the cost of hate
Debates are proven what now
False states of america is how the union falls down
Line and lines of the sick and poor standing, waiting for the help
Does it get better, bitter yes
By~J.S.K
"As Shown"
One at a time I get it back
Twice I forgot
Third is where I go
Fourth was then
Fifth is the black cloud
Someone always had something to say so what do you want to say now
I put you on the spot and you ain't got shit for me
I was made for war, you knock me down and I beg for more
I still claim to be the man, I'm the one that can't be broken
No Weak Links
They aren't in my life anymore
I don't believe in bitching anymore about this
I look to myself for things that cannot change
There's a way to everything
The world is in the palm of my hand
It feels like I have no one's support
When all else fails look inside and you'll find the panic button
Break the glass and give in to press
Remember No Weak Links
Base your story upon that and see what you end with
By~J.S.K
"Seed"
Why don't you people just understand? I honesty just don't give a fuck
I've been down on my luck lately and I feel no reason to go on
And I know I'll hear all of them oh no's and hold ups and some bullshit
Someone needs to back the fuck up before they see a man get mean about it
Everyone of you that have fucked me have planted that seed that eats me inside out everday
everytime
Just leave me alone and I'll die just fine
It's easy enough to understand
I've done lost my grip on everything
But it's ok
I'll adjust and die just fine on my own
Old age is fucking over rated and I'm not going through that
I've got this bottle of whiskey and my whole life ahead of me
Let's see which one runs out first so bottoms up and drink that shit down
I've always wanted to know what if heaven was on earth?
What if everything good was really bad?
Has it started to sink in yet?
The wickedness of it all.. Protect me devil I think the Lord is trying to kill me
It's back to that again
Heaven just may not be the place to go... Just judge me
I'm a devil, real fucking evil backed with unlimited amounts of hate
You wish you knew as much as you think you do about me, bitch you know half
That's about it
You ain't did what I've done so shut up
You don't know shit about my fears and I felt pain so you wouldn't have to
Now it's my fault that I've backed away
I hope someone can feel this
The evil seed
By~J.S.K
"SouthEnd"
I've held the gun to my head thinking about how it could be for me to finally end my
pain and to get myself a better life
But what I've seen what life can offer me and I'm not leaving my friends without putting
up a fight
I understand I get judged for what I write and how most people think I've lost it all
This isn't the case
Hasn't anyone ever felt this inside?
As far as I see only god can judge me and does he really even care?
He's turned his back when I prayed to him so now I don't and gave up on that bullshit
I know my boys got my back and I'd fight and die for them like they would for me
You can't break our circle, we don't have any weak links in our chain
Fuck all you haters that are out there runnin they mouth
You all just wish you could have it like us and hang out with our crew
While they are living in style up in some rich-ass hood we chillin down in the streets
Spittin bullshit like most young punks do
But what do any of you all know about seeing your buddy gettin shot up for no reason,
watch the police beat the shit out of us just for our looks
Neighbors be watching out the window waitin to let that gun go off
Why do so many people hate us?
Yea we wear our clothes too big, play our music to loud, starting pits with that metal
shit, bumping our heads to that rap shit
We got metal in our faces and ink in our skin
I'm claiming this our new generation and we will run the world
Give us a few years and let's see how capital hill rolls
All them old war bent bastards are laying face down in the grave
We'll be stepping all over them and breaking the rules
We'll bring home our troops home cuz we are sick of seeing our youth dying
Fuck BUSH, I hope someone snipers his ass in broad daylight in front of his wife and
kids
Let them watch him bleed
I won't cut no taxes or fix healthcare
I'll tell it how it is and not feed anyone bullshit lies
Then let me bring all the boys into my cabinet and fuck witht the world
Just wait until that day comes
Mark our words
Judgement day is coming for a lot of you fuckers
Them bullets gonna rip your back up
~By.J.S.K(Thanks To My Buddies That Helped Out)
"Lifeless Endless Nameless"
Rusty blades lay on the cold ground
Blood puddles form around the lifeless body
Heaven's force has taken contorl and saved a few
But when it's my turn what's to become?
I'm gods child but I'm satans angel
So does that help me any?
I shrug and look up to the sky and hope someone is thinking about me
I've cried my tears and taken my drugs
I'm sinful and trying to be saved and turn my life all around
This is just basic and I'm having trouble
Bury my face into my hands and let out a scream
This is a never ending battle with myself
I just want to be normal and live a healthy life
Someday though Someday I'll be carefree and be alright
But for now I just ask for you all to pray for me and hope I come out of this alive.
By~J.s.K
"Renegade Today From Past"
You al know what? I think I'm ready to put myself in the ground for a nap
This shouldn't be no suprize for those of you that know about all the sick twisted thoughts
in my head
I woke up today to find that I really don't care because I'm just so empty on life and
the thrill is no longer here for me to thrive on and I'm putting the smiles away
Someone fell out of love with me so what do I do?
It's been raining so long now the sun has faded out and the earth is starting to burn
from the inside
Sudden impact is set to happen and everyone is running but me
The ash has started to cover my body and it burns my eyes
People wanna know how I died but there is no truth just only the scars and the ash I
leave behind
Plug the cord into my neck and erase all the memories that have blown like the fuse that
kept me going
Reprogram myself will not be an easy task for any of you
But nevermind that shit now
My body has been left on the table for them to cut me up and say I died from multiple
shots to the head and upper frame
As the knife enters my skin time makes all this shit pass away
The blood clots then starts to run and the devil within pushes my body up
Jesus looks down and nods
Everything stops as I see both forces have just saved me for another day to serve them
Them days are numbered from 100 and up
It's the whole reason I'm here
I'll live once more to die another day
Ashes to Ashes
Dust To Dust
Good has been killed and evil is now just.
By~J.s.K
"F.L.R"
Broken promise's fall unto you
The foundation of your lie has been cracked
Did it send your world crashing down?
Did your poor pity heart break in two?
How did you think I felt when you stuck me with venom of hurt?
Just think about that....
Look little girl I still don't think you understand fully
I wanted things to work out and we reach an agreement but everytime talks were close, you fucking
cheated
Had to go and forget about what was important just because you wanted something right then and
now
From the way I look at it, I'm wasting my time writing this childish poem, these bullshit lines,
I found what I've always wanted and I made her mine
I'm a father to be, husband of two already, so just move on with your life
You started this verbal shit and little girl I'm gonna finish it off right here
You got what you had coming to you and that should be all
But nah someone wanted to start this verbal shit and talk behind my back
Good job, you just proved my point stronger then every before
Eye for an Eye
Lie for an Lie
Do Unto Others
All this fair and open game, I had the ball in my court and I made the move
And now you figured out my choices in life didn't include you
*Just Remember Who HURT Who First... The 1st time*
"Another Place"
Inside my mind, locked up alone
Walking the floors and looking at the clock
Times been standing still and there is nothing to show for it
Thoughts flood into me like most bad ideas do
I can't escape myself
I've beaten everything into the ground and I'm still going under
No one can seem to understand why I do the shit I do
No one can see why I hurt like I do
It just doesn't matter
I need to get to another place
A place where I can't feel
A place where I can't care
Looking around I still see this empty space
Knowing you aren't coming home right now
I pace myself and start to plot
Could I get away with it?
And would it really matter to you?
I could leave and just go away but the feelings and cares will follow me there
to
Doubts are known
Memories are breaking down faster and faster
I need to find another place to go
A place where I can smile
A place where I will be understood
Rest is the only thing that comes close
Waking the next morning
Nothing has changed
Same old same
I cant hear you talking
I cant feel you near
A drop falls from my eye
My hearts sinks down low
Sickness in my stomach
I now know I've got a long hard road
Thanks for making me think I actually counted
By`J.S.K
 
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